neglect

Hello, it's me again. So sorry I've been treating this blog like a spouse that you rely on to the extent that you can sort of overlook that they need to be appreciated and listened to too. Like how I personify my blog?! But I think it's something very easy to do, not be mindful, and sort of take for granted those closest to us - especially with the rat race of day to day and I'm no Palin fan but things are feeling very end of days globally of late. Soo... I will try to post more regularly. I finished my finals, looks like I've chalked up to more As. I know it's only community college but it makes me happy to have a 4.0 in school. I wish I had been this dedicated as an undergrad but, you know, being young and dumb I was more focused on boys. Oh well, it's never too late to discover your inner science geek is what I tell myself. Before Christmas arrives I have grand plans to paint over the living room, dining room, half bath and hallway - I don't know if all of this (or any) will be realized but I like to aim high. I'm getting a new camera for my birthday (yippee) so even if I don't post random interior monologues I'll try to get back to posting photos more often, although finding the photogenic parts of Pittsburgh in the winter is a somewhat herculean task. Hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving. I gorged on sweet potatoes, stuffing, cranberry sauce and gravy - seriously I could eat that every day without getting bored. But... I'm trying to learn more about healthy eating and will try not to be such an emotional eater in the new year. I really don't know how any mom can not be an emotional eater but I'll try. It's odd because people will comment on me being small or there's a woman at the gym who's always assuming I have no problems with my weight but my mind is like a size 12 person stuck in a much smaller size body. It sounds so fake to say but it's true, no matter how much I weigh I always seem to look the same and I focus on the bulging parts- sort of like how I focus on all the crack in my walls. I think if you've ever struggled with an eating disorder it might make sense but otherwise it might seem like you're looking for a compliment handout. Anyhoo, I'll try to post cheery pictures in the next few days.